The first night I left Michael at the hospital, it suddenly occurred to me that in 33 years, I had never spent a night alone in my house. There had always been a husband, children, lover here. Of course I lived alone before I married and have spent nights away on holiday in apartments and … Continue reading
Category Archives: reflections
WAITING FOR GODDO?……
0700h. Today ( Friday) at 0930h we have an appointment with the Surgeon and Medic to discuss the plan of care. Yesterday the haematologist was very optimistic. Michaels blood picture is acceptable for surgery after an increase in his antiviral drug regime.. To distract me from my anxiety, I am re -living some of my Paris memories.. … Continue reading
LIFE GOES ON….
Day 6 Tuesday After the multidisciplinary meeting yesterday, we got a phone call confirming the surgical appointment on Friday. I took this as reassuring. There must not be anything so urgent it can not wait till Friday. Still, at the back of my mind is still the thought “what if”. Our anxiety and tension … Continue reading
ANOTHER YEAR OLDER.
Hello. This last week I have been so busy I have not had time for blogging or even much time for the internet. Between work, an “advanced communication ” course and keeping the house in “viewing” standard. I have hardly opened my computer and frankly not had much inspiration for blogging. But today is my … Continue reading
Ok I am not well………. My temperature has been zooming up and down all weekend and today I feel like I have been kicked all over….and if the truth be known , I am feeling very sorry for myself. I have stayed off work today and attempted to do something, but I haven’t got the energy. So I try … Continue reading
MY LIFE, PLAN B
“MyLife Plan B” was the title of a blog post on freshly pressed a couple of weeks ago from Mama Bear, the blogger behind Call Me She Bear, who is almost 40 years old, and coming to terms with the fact that her life hasn’t turned out quite the way she’d been planning. Hmm! Know … Continue reading
SO MAYBE I WILL TRY NOT TO BE SO GRUMPY!
New year has never had much meaning for me, except as an excuse to get drunk when I was young, stand in the cold waiting for a taxi, or work overnight on the most miserable night of the year, reflecting on what could have been…… Every day is the beginning of a new year, … Continue reading
THE KITCHEN TABLE.
Denise stood in her kitchen and looked at the table. She well remembered the first time she excitedly came into the kitchen through the door on the side. 33 years ago today. With her young husband and two young children. Full of hope and anticipation. Her daughter, Sunshine was one and her son,Bloggerman was three. It was not … Continue reading
LIFE IS A JOURNEY
The travel bug struck me late in life. Not for me the student rovings on international trains, backpacking or hostels. I was a working class girl who neither had the desire, experience or opportunity to travel in my youth. Then chronic homesickness, that painful yearning for the familiarity of my own bed whenever I left … Continue reading