I was amazed how fast the infection hit. At 1810h, Michael said he felt cold and went inside from the garden. He checked his tempreature 37.5C pretty normal. I went off on my bike ride. But he continued to feel shivery and within 30 minutes his temperature was 38.8C. he rang … Continue reading
Category Archives: Coping with cancer.
WELCOME TO A WORLD OF BALD PEOPLE….
In the event, it wasn’t that bad. We arrived at the oncology unit of the local hospital at 2pm, both of us feeling not a little anxious and saying very little to each other. I had tried to be cheerful but I could feel Michaels anxiety and I felt helpless to reassure him as … Continue reading
My son described it as a “wobbly” …a sudden emotional reaction to a situation you thought you had accepted Yesterday afternoon, finding myself in the haematology for the fifth time in two weeks , I started to get a bit unreasonably angry and frustrated. . Already I am fed up of hospital appointments. Spending my … Continue reading
A DOUBLE WHAMMY….
There are times when I feel I am in a bad dream and I just want to run away and hide. Then there are times I find myself just doing normal things and it seems weird. Life is going on. There are times when I briefly forget. Then there are times … Continue reading
THE NIGHTMARE OF FINDING PARIS ACCOMODATION……
So our lives have become,…… (YUK ALERT!)….. obsessive interest in bowel habits. (Frequency, timing, consistency and volume)…… dashes to out of hours medical centres with wound infections and forgotten wound staples……. Sleeping,….. eating …..and relaxing. (plus the darned racing commentary is back!. Aggh!) Both the twelve year old out of hours GP (it … Continue reading
Yesterday I had a bad day. I felt like I was drowning in anxiety. In Michaels racing terms, having jumped over the hurdles of bowel cancer, surgery, infection and post operative do-lallyness and thinking that the field would be pretty flat. we find there is another big fence in front of us. It turns … Continue reading
LOVE IS PATIENT. ………
Love is kind,..………….. Continue reading
THE DAY PASS. .
It is not without a feeling of guilt that I am taking a day off today. Everybody says “look after the carer too” but it’s really difficult. Michael told me to go out for lunch ( maybe he wants s break from ME!) Still I have rung him three times this morning, just to make sure he is alive … Continue reading
SCENES FROM A HIGH DEPENDENCY UNIT……
Teresa is tired. Her six month old baby kept her up most of the night, teething and she felt really guilty leaving her today to do a twelve hour shift on the HDU. Still Teresa likes her job. She gives one to one care on the unit to people who need special treatment and … Continue reading
HERE ENDED ONE OF THE LONGEST DAYS OF MY LIFE….
After a long four and a half operation, too my great relief. Michael came back to High Dependency unit last night about 9pm. He looked good, his colour blood pressure etc were all fine and his only sleepy comment was “Tired”!! The surgeon had spoken to me about what had been done. and I cried with relief when he left … Continue reading