Quote..“Learning to live life in the moment is part of joy“ Sarah Ban Breathnach”
We both got tired of waiting!
So, we’d already decided to go out and celebrate, before we saw the Doctors. Whatever the results, there were no certainties any more. and we’d better make the most of it while we could. .
Do you ever have a day when the world and everything in it changes for ever?……well April 18th 2013 was that day for us.
Since then , I know it sound’s trite to say we have been on a journey of self discovery, but that is what it has been,…. and all those things, all those wise sayings that you read and people say to you, suddenly make sense and you feel them rather than knowing to them in your head.
Sorry to go banging on about one day at a time and lifes too short etc, and maybe it is a waste of time trying to explain to other people, because it takes an experience like this, when all your certainties are smashed, all your values are called into question, your self image is put under the spotlight.
your relationships are challenged. and as a result, somehow, we fundamentally changed inside.
That doesn’t mean we have not had our moments of fear, doubt, blind panic, grumpiness, impatience and just shear fed upness, these are all part of the journey. A journey that for some reason I chose to document here on my blog.
But the other day that changes our lives is December 3rd 2013 when Michael is told
“YOU ARE IN REMISSION”
…IN REMISSION! !
I don’t think either of us knew how to react.
After eight months of uncertainty, pain, worry, we are being given permission to live our lives again.
But life will never be the same, for we have looked over the abyss ……and living one day at a time in some ways is no life at all. We need hope, we need dreams.
It took about an hour to sink in. Then Michael suddenly said.,” its amazing how I suddenly feel better, and I didn’t know I felt ill”
….and I thought,” It’s amazing how the weight has gone that I didn’t know was on my shoulders”
It took a couple more hours for the elation to kick in.
Blow one day at a time, now lets go and make plans. Lets go and celebrate!
Because we now know how fragile this reality really is