Quote “I want to reach out and grab his hand and hold it to me, right over my heart, right where it aches the most. I don’t know if doing that would heal him, or make my heart break entirely, but either way this constant hungry waiting would be over.”
― Ally Condie, Matched
WordPress are telling me that my stats are “booming”. Which is strange because I have not posted anything for over a week mainly because I have been really busy and not had much to say..
I can only assume that people are actually interested in what is happening and are logging in to see if there is any news. That moves me to tears that people really care.
So, an update…… no results yet regarding the cancer, we have to wait till December 3rd for that.
The PET scan that will tell us if the cancer cells have been zapped, was last Thursday, all seemed well and we celebrated by going to watch “the Butler” at the cinema.
Then on Friday afternoon Michaels temperature suddenly went up and he was admitted to hospital. I knew that his neutrophils ( the cells that protect him from infection) were low on Wednesday, but this turn of events were so unexpected.
He suddenly seemed very ill and I must admit all my coping skills deserted me and by Friday night I was really freaking out. In my head I had him dead and buried by Christmas.
Eventually my dear friend Lizzie calmed me down, just by listening. It is amazing how just voicing your worries, no matter how stupid they seen can help.
We also watched the 50th anniversary of “Dr Who” and I converted her to be a fan of “Borgen”. So something good came out of it after all!
Three days, isolation, tests, blood cultures, ECG, swabs, Chest Xrays and antibiotics and other drugs later. he was discharged and they did not find any source of the problem, so the good news is that he has been thoroughly checked over and they found nothing….so it’s just the cancer then !!!
Since then he has slept most of the time and I’m feeling rather lonely, but much less anxious than a week ago.
I was reminded by one of the blogs I have been reading that humour is very important and this is something I really lost over the weekend.
Being a natural pessimist, I am not naturally humorous, or rather my humour is that of the ironic kind and often black, but I found it impossible to find anything funny about the situation over the weekend.
So maybe instead of watching the news in the mornings I should start watching Frazier, after all I can do nothing about world peace at the moment!
As I said we watched “the Butler” a film about a black boy growing up in America who becomes a butler in the White house.
Not wanting to give the plot away. Racial discrimination and civil rights movement in the US is well known about, but I have to say I found this a rather disturbing and depressing film.
When I thought about WHY I found the film disturbing I decided that it is because there is absolutely NO humour in the film.
Contrast this with “Philomena” a film we watched last week, which I really enjoyed. Even though the subject matter….Old Irish lady looking for son, forcibly taken away from her 50 years ago, by Nasty catholic nuns... made me cry. There were moments of ironic humour in this film, thanks to Steve Coogans screenplay, who played the pretentious journalist who is trying to write her story.
All jokes will be welcome!!!!