Ok, so I have been absent without leave recently.
Not sure why, but I developed almost a complete writing block a few weeks ago.
Faced with a blank sheet of paper, keyboard, blog, email and even facebook I struggled to find words to write.
After a lifetime of frantically and secretly scribbling my thoughts and feelings suddenly there was nothing there…..I was spent! nil!, nothing! zilch!
I started a creative writing class two weeks ago and thought that might give me some inspiration, but on the first night the tutor asked us to outline the plot of a favourite book and I could not think of one book I liked, not one!. Me,.. who usually has two or three books going at the same time!
The tutor, who co-incidentally knows both me and Michael, said “don’t worry, you have a lot going on at the moment” .. which is true
so why can I not find any words to write?
I am now writing about it, in the hope that the block will be lifted.
and what has been going on in my life?
1.My bike was stripped of all it’s accessories whilst I had popped into the bike shop for some new batteries for the lights. (enter expletive to describe these people!)
2.I accepted an offer on my house and have a completion date of December 15th. Help!!
3. House hunting is all consuming. I am either trawling the internet looking for suitable properties, viewing potential properties or obsessing if I am doing the right thing.
4. Michael has had chemotherapy number 5, and blood transfusion number 4. He has got progressively more fatigued and is now spending most of the time in bed. He seems a bit fed up by this. as am I and just wants it all to end.
One more session to go.
5.I think I just continue on autopilot. I keep trying to find things to be grateful for each day. Which really helps. I meditate in the mornings to focus my mind and my mantra is “peace and love” .
I won’t allow any negative thoughts to linger for long and try to watch only cheerful programmes. My philosophy is that..
I might as well be cheerful as miserable during this bleak period in our lives. as it makes life easier.
6. Downton Abbey has started again on UK TV. But last week I fell asleep before it finished!!
7.My fridge freezer died! .( the day after my bike was robbed) the positive aspect of this is that it gave me the opportunity to buy a newer, bigger model which I have needed for a while.
8. The toilet got blocked up the day after the fridge died! It never rains but what it pours! as my Grandma used to say.
You sometimes just have to laugh at the irony of life!
So onward and upwards as they say.
Hopefully I will be back to blogging soon.