On the way back from said dash to emergency health centre, Michael suddenly decided he was hungry, and “fancied fish and chips” … Major bowel surgery has only affected his appetite in that everything tastes wonderful! So, as I am temporarily indulging his every whim, we called at the Olympus Fish restaurant in Bolton town … Continue reading
Monthly Archives: May 2013
THE NIGHTMARE OF FINDING PARIS ACCOMODATION……
So our lives have become,…… (YUK ALERT!)….. obsessive interest in bowel habits. (Frequency, timing, consistency and volume)…… dashes to out of hours medical centres with wound infections and forgotten wound staples……. Sleeping,….. eating …..and relaxing. (plus the darned racing commentary is back!. Aggh!) Both the twelve year old out of hours GP (it … Continue reading
NOBODY WOULD HEAR ME SCREAM….
The first night I left Michael at the hospital, it suddenly occurred to me that in 33 years, I had never spent a night alone in my house. There had always been a husband, children, lover here. Of course I lived alone before I married and have spent nights away on holiday in apartments and … Continue reading
Yesterday I had a bad day. I felt like I was drowning in anxiety. In Michaels racing terms, having jumped over the hurdles of bowel cancer, surgery, infection and post operative do-lallyness and thinking that the field would be pretty flat. we find there is another big fence in front of us. It turns … Continue reading
LOVE IS PATIENT. ………
Love is kind,..………….. Continue reading
THE DAY PASS. .
It is not without a feeling of guilt that I am taking a day off today. Everybody says “look after the carer too” but it’s really difficult. Michael told me to go out for lunch ( maybe he wants s break from ME!) Still I have rung him three times this morning, just to make sure he is alive … Continue reading
SCENES FROM A HIGH DEPENDENCY UNIT……
Teresa is tired. Her six month old baby kept her up most of the night, teething and she felt really guilty leaving her today to do a twelve hour shift on the HDU. Still Teresa likes her job. She gives one to one care on the unit to people who need special treatment and … Continue reading
HERE ENDED ONE OF THE LONGEST DAYS OF MY LIFE….
After a long four and a half operation, too my great relief. Michael came back to High Dependency unit last night about 9pm. He looked good, his colour blood pressure etc were all fine and his only sleepy comment was “Tired”!! The surgeon had spoken to me about what had been done. and I cried with relief when he left … Continue reading
Day 26. 14th May2013 1400h Hospital waiting rooms can be the loneliest places and this is going to be the longest afternoon of my life. The knot of fear in my stomach is back. Michael went to theatre about half an hour ago. I am proud of his calmness and strength . Of course he has charmed … Continue reading
Day 25…WHEN WILL LIFE EVER BE THE SAME AGAIN?
So today is THE day. Michael goes in hospital prior to surgery. This weekend has been rainy and miserable, I wanted to eat out and make the most of it, but Michael was not very hungry as he has to take some supplements to boost his nutrition, for what is called “enhanced … Continue reading