“CANCER,” is a big word………a frightening word…………

…………..When the doctor used it today  to describe what they had found on a routine screening of Michaels bowel, I sat there in shock.   Michael, still slightly sedated from the colonoscopy,  did not react at all.

The doctor explained that Michael would have a CT scan tomorrow and then a appointment with a surgeon to discuss surgery to remove the affected part of his bowel.

On the positive side, he said, as they had found it early during routine screening, the prognosis was good.

We drive home is silence, a tight knot in my stomach, my mind racing.  Michael said he felt nothing, ….he said  ” what will be will be“.  and “  good job you didn’t book that Paris apartment for June”.   As we got home he said.  “as you are always saying, life’s too short, make the most of t while you can”.

Everything is now on hold.  My trip to California next week, accommodation for  our June trip to the Prix de Diane in Paris.   ( just when I have found an ideal place!)  September plans for The Vendange.  a trip to Edinburgh.

All this time I have been concerned about the Myelodysplasia and this little demon has been creeping up on us quietly.

We just have wait and see.

Meanwhile Michael is flat out,   asleep on the sofa!

Love Denise

…and I know you were expecting reports from Paris, they will come soon.  Distraction therapy!


27 thoughts on ““CANCER,” is a big word………a frightening word…………

  1. Denise… I’m sorry to read this news.. like Dawn, all my good thoughts, prayers and positive vibes are with Michael and you. Kia Kaka! xxxx


  2. I remember well my reaction to the “Cancer” word when my doctor said it to me almost 30 years ago. I will pray for you and Michael. I firmly believe that if He brings you to it, He will take you through it!


  3. Oh no! As you said, you were worried about the Myelodysplasia and then this happens – I do feel that all will be well because the Cancer was caught so early but it’s just a damn nuisance to have to go through the necessary surgery and any additional treatments- and it is such a worry and concern for you/Michael and your families – Tim and I will start some additional prayers right away and will continue to pray for Michael and you every day – all good thoughts and wishes are being sent to both of you!


  4. A frightening word indeed. I am very very sorry about this Denise. Try and keep remembering that the doctor is optimistic and I hope that you both keep strong and optimistic too. I will be thinking of you two


    • Thanks Anne. Yes we are staying positve and focussing in what the doctor said about the prognosis being good. CT scan tomorrow and multidisciplinary meeting on Monday to decide care pathway, so we should know date of surgery soon and if there will be any chemotherapy or radiotherapy. Soon we are pleased by the speed of the process. Love Denise


  5. Denise: I am so sorry to hear this. Even though I don’t know either of you in real life, virtual hugs to both of you. You will both be in my thoughts and prayers.


  6. Michael and you are in my thoughts and prayers, Denise. While cancer is a very scary word, thank goodness that it was caught in its early stages. The doctors will do an excellent job caring for Michael. Please make sure that you take care of yourself. Your health is important too — especially now!

    Hugs and love from Paris. Mary Kay


    • Mary Kay, thanks for your prayers.

      . One of the benefits of blogging is that it gives people like me an outlet for my feelings and a virtual support network. Part of looking after myself is the ability of sharing my worries with my blog friends and people like you who have also become my physical friends.

      A lot of my blog world is down to the introductions I have found through your blog. At a time like this these contacts are priceless to me . They are far enough away to be objective, yet know me well. Also there is the benefit that they only know Michael through my blog as his reaction and coping strategy is very different than mine. Mostly denial and secrecy.

      Thank you so much.

      Nice to see you last week. Hopefully we can meet again soon.

      Love Denise


  7. Hi Denise,

    My thoughts and prayers go out to you and Michael. I’m so sorry to read this, but there is so much hope when it is detected early, so good on him for keeping up on his appointments.

    Sending love from Paris.


  8. Hi Denise.
    I am very sorry to hear the news. Early detection is definitely in Michael’s favour. I will be thinking of you both and sending many get well vibes your way.


  9. Hi Denise,
    I’m sending my most positive vibes to Michael and you. Early detection is a huge deal and great strides have been made in cancer treatment in the last years, especially when it is caught early. As others have said, don’t forget to take care of yourself as well, Michael needs your love and encouragement as you go through this together. Thinking of you both……


  10. Dear Denise, Hoorible news. Fortunately you and Michael have been honoring the shortness of life already, so you have great moments to help get you through this lousy time. Big hugs to you both!


  11. My brother’s a doctor in Chicago, Ill. (I will not get and special dispensation for that, either); but he told me, if I ever get prostate cancer, which I probably will because of our father’s medical history, “just consider it detour. Anymore, it’s just a detour, you know.”
    I pray you’ll be fine.


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